The 1% Blooper!


The 1% Blooper!

In January l will have known my partner for five years and come June we will have our five year ‘couple anniversary’ – for the majority of that time together we have faced, challenge, obstacle and hurdles and we have overcome all of them. On a scale of between 1-10 in reference to happiness, l would say that mostly it has resided in the 9 bracket, but obviously at times of great confusion it sits in the 6-7. This is still great for a relationship though!

My partner is an NT [neurotypical], whilst l am as you probably know by now an Aspie [Aspergers Syndrome], which can make for at times the occasional blimp, blip, blooper or glitch. We don’t always see or think the same way which is understandable, and let’s be brutally honest our ‘NeuroAspie’ is not specifically unique or different to that of a full Neuro/Neuro or Aspie/Aspie relationship – Every relationship on the planet can at one point or another experience the ‘curveball glitch!’

But normally we are pretty harmonious and can communicate and interact extremely well despite a difference occasionally in the way we see or interpret things. This design represents the bloopers in relationships.

I was born an Aspie, but was only recognised at 43 and privately diagnosed when l hit late 44. I am currently 54, so officially an Aspie for 10 years this year. It was a blessing as much as it was an opened can of worms for l was suddenly astutely aware that my ‘differences’ to mainstream society was not because l was ‘ill’ as the medical professional deigned me to be for more years than l care to remember, but more significantly because l had this strange social disorder – but now l had a label for my quirky and sometimes inappropriate behaviour and actions.

So, there we have it ‘l am an Aspie and proud!” I have no shame or guilt at saying this, and in truth why the fuck should l? Because all of us, irrelevant to who we are, whatever label we may or may not hold, can only be ourselves, we are after all ‘all different’ anyway!

My partner is not on the spectrum – well not directly – because in essence everyone is somewhere on the spectrum – science verifies this, however for the purpose of this design and post her thinking and my thinking differ – she is atypical to typical as far as a non autist can be.

Which means that whilst as two planets can evolve around each other harmoniously, there does come a time when on occasion, these two planets can ‘bump into each other!’ Not so harmonious then! The design was based upon that theory, those two planets – in our case ‘Aspergers’ & Neurotypical can live happily together in one universe for 99% of their 100% existence!

It’s that 1% bump that can feel like an almighty 99% tsunami and meteor shower all rolled up into one major disaster

My partner tells me that ‘living with an Aspie’ is a real challenge and that l must feel the same? I have to remind myself to not be typically literal with that, and that she means living with her and not living with me, but living with me from my point of view is also hard work, so l can see where she is coming from with her statement!

Well of sorts, but if l listen to her, then l guess she must have a harder time of it than l do. I mean of course there are things that she does that completely baffle me, but that’s perfectly natural, in fact it is almost a ‘given’ in any relationship, that there will always be times when two partners are confused by the other!

Admittedly, ‘neurotypically speaking as an Aspie’, l am not often that worried , we agreed to be ourselves and not wear masks, so l don’t wear masks with her , l am just me – ok, l know at my own concession that l am at times ‘different to normal appropriate behavioural patterns!’ I make noises, and stim, and swing, and say strange things and act crazily – l do, l like being me, l lived for too long not being me, but being a version of expected and acceptable society me. But l burned out frequently as it is really hard being someone else!

In the main however, we are great as a couple and nearly five years down the line we have only bumped a couple of times in the universe we live in, but sadly those bumps have been enormous, and l am none too sure if we could survive a third or fourth major collision. If we parted we wouldn’t part as enemies we would part as friends, or as a sort of distance relationship couple. We could probably survive much more efficiently if we had our own places instead of always being under the same roof, because we equally need time out from each other at times.

We also love each other and that is a really good thing – they say that love makes the world go around – maybe that is the case – or maybe we are all just planets spinning harmoniously in the same universe till the 1% …………………

More on this l feel later …

Rory Matier – The Tee Shirt Blogger

Ps: These posts are my views on my autism/Asperger’s, they may not be everyone else’s who is on the spectrum.




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